"You will always have seats in your heart for the people that matter to you. The sad thing about it is if these people don’t stop to sit down and the seats are left empty — and for some time, your heart will feel quite empty too… But there will come a time when you realize that you have to stop waiting for these people to take their seats. You have to take a seat yourself and learn that when you do sit in the center of your heart, a lot of other people will come to occupy the seats around you. Your heart has so many seats available, but you don’t open it to just anybody. You open your heart to those who wish for that genuine connection with you, so they can take a seat and journey alongside you.”
In a world where it is supposedly possible to make dreams a reality, it is hardly surprising to find a little satisfaction in a selfish act. I’ll have to admit, then, that I had indeed been acting quite selfishly the past few days, taking things for granted, assuming that things would turn out absolutely okay. Well, I was wrong for doing such. I realized that, no, this world doesn’t really make my dreams come true. Rather, they make me realize what a shitty reality I’m in and that, once in a while, I get a moment of respite and some memorable experiences… But that’s it, they’re all just moments which aren’t long enough to make me believe they actually existed. I realized that in every selfish act I made, I get heartaches five times more frequently and at a greater intensity. Then again, life’s like that… right? You get to suffer more and feel sorrow more than happiness in your life, and make sacrifices, so that when the good days come, the bad will also be just a part of a memory… and once the good days are over, these become memories as well. Only, these good memories will be kept in a small part of the brain—memories ready to be taken out to keep the sorrow at bay when they become too much.
Now that the good days are reaching it’s natural end (because good things don’t last forever), all I can do is store the memories in my head and heart really well and make sure that they’re within reach every time the bad days come to visit and stay for a while.
Every time my life goes in roller coasters, I try to create a sense of constancy around me. Yes, the adventures are there, but it’s also the constancy of routine that make the adventures even more novel and enjoyable. I’ve taken advantage of a little adventure and the idea leaves a heady feeling in my being. As a child, growing up I felt the constant presence of absence in my life — but I can’t do anything more about this, so I try to hold on to things that seem so much more important now. The novelty of adventures make me feel the constancy of being alive and I think that’s what really matters. The memories of my adventures will always remain now; they’ll be remember mostly, especially when the bad days visit. I’ll just have to sit back and think of waves lapping on the shore and the heat of the sand and sun around me and I would feel infinitely better right away.
I feel satisfied. I feel quite happy. I know sooner or later this feeling of high will be replaced with some form of sadness. But right now, I feel alive — and it feels oh so good.
The best ever summer ender! #summer #palawan #coron #calamianes #ohyeah #beach #nature
Funny how one week can be so stressful and yet i’d gladly go thru the hype again (BUT pacing, pacing…). @01072014
We do drowsy by the disco. Hahaha @01072014 #disco #night #colors #ohyeah (at Mayflower Inn)
:) #smile #char #vacation #dipolog salamat sa picture @yeneatsicecream (at Sea View Hotel)